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Ah! Another one of those days. I’m emotionally
exhausted, in a way, but not. I wish there was
something I could do to make it better for
staff, students, and the program. But then
part of me knows that I can’t.
I know. I’ve felt this way before. Just one of
those days.
What have I learned? Sometimes, you
just need to let go and let God do what He’s
going to do.
That
which has been is what will be,
That
which is done is what will be done,
And
there is nothing new under the sun.
(Ecclesiastes 1:9)
The sun
also rises, and the sun goes down.
And
hastens to the place where it arose.
(Ecclesiastes 1:5)
I know. It gets better. I think that a gift of
being a Christian is knowing that God is in
control. I just love holding on to His word. I
love that He is faithful.
Blessed Be Your Name by Matt Redman was my song today.
Are you having a bad day? Are you still
looking for a job? Are you in debt? Is your
relationship falling apart? Is your loved one
sick?
I think it’s always good to keep things in
perspective, when sometimes, we don’t wanna! We
get so caught up in whatever is going on. But
think about it! Have you lost someone you love?
Doesn’t the world just seem to come to a
screeching halt? And then we make this mental
note to spend more time with the ones we
love…because when it boils down to it, the other
stuff comes and goes. How many jobs have you had
the past 10 years? Do you have the exact same
circle of friends the past 20 years? What
occupies your time now?
And then, you find yourself moving on…because
the world did not actually stop. It just felt
like it. And the world around you keeps going…
I was up early this morning and I was talking to
God and something from Exodus keeps going
through my head. I was shrugging it off. That’s
not exactly what I wanted to hear. So after
tossing and turning for over an hour, I said,
“Ok. Speak Lord, your servant is listening.” So
I finally gave in and opened my Bible, wanting
to hear His voice. My Psalm for the day – Psalm
78 - exactly what I’ve been chewing on the past
hour! So I tried to read it twice, and as soon
as I heard, I fell right back to sleep.
He just wanted to let me know that…
Sometimes we’re in a situation that we want to
get out of just like the Israelites did. And we
cry out over and over. And He hears us. And He
takes us out of that situation. But guess what?
Are we EVER happy? Are we ever content??? God
answered the cries of the Israelites. He
delivered them from slavery. God pulls people
from addictions or sticky situations. But then
not too long after that, we lose sight of where
we’ve been and what we’ve been asking all along.
We start complaining and want what used to be.
Wishing…wishing life was as it were before. What
we’re used to.
The Christian walk is something all right.
There’s no magic formula. It doesn’t get any
easier. It’s a different perspective. Different
beliefs.
It’s weird being in ministry. How as a new fired
up Christian, you just want to serve the Lord.
“Here, send me!” And then when He picks you,
LOL, sometimes, you ask, “Why me???” And then
you get blessed with good days, whatever
that means to you, and you think, “I just love
serving My Lord!”
Sigh. So I end my day today. So is there
something that I could do to make it better for
staff, students, and the program? Would a box
of sweets help any? Is there something I can
buy that will make things better? Deep down, I
know the answer is no.
So what’s a girl got to do? Ah, the only thing I
know to do. Keep my seat belt on, pray, and hold
on to God, knowing He will guide me with my
every move and step if I stay with Him.
I realized it’s good to have a verse for the
week too. Mine’s this week is Philippians 4:8,
“…whatever things are true, whatever things are
noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever
things are lovely, whatever things are of good
report, if there is any virtue and if there is
anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.”
Praise be to God, Almighty, My Creator, King of
the Universe. Praise God that I’m NOT in
control!
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
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